Category Archives: Depression

Losing Love

The saddest sound is and empty house.
Possessed by loved one’s hanging blouse.
When it sinks in she is no longer there.
Understanding that in life, its never fair to care.

Sit here and ponder,
When it was I lost my wonder,
All I know is left in the silence,
Echoing through my house of penance.

Let my spark
flicker in the dark
Memories are a mirage
Flashing a never ending barrage

Alcohol only fuels this madness
Willing to relive the sadness
Trying to numb the truth of reality
Cursing the concept of mortality

Day after day the cycle will continue
For I can not accept this world so new
There is no living without you.

 

 


Yesterday to Tomorrow

Yesterday To Tomorrow

By Shoeless B. Wonder

Yesterday we spoke again
You, the devil’s friend
Gave birth to this demon inside of me
Every word said set it free

Today I drank to the memory of you
Hoping I will forget what is true
That this stain would come clean
But it remains obscene

Tomorrow shall come
All I want is to run
For you will fade to the past
And I’ll be stuck in the shadow you cast


Sinking

The tide of the sea is rising
Won’t be long till I am capsizing
Sinking in the silence
For my voice lost its resonance

My deeds are out cast
absorbed in the contrast
Life is at battle
Even more so with a baby’s rattle

Like a coiled snake ready to strike
You have react quick to avoid the spike
Not concerned on where you step
Only creating more to schlep

The choices you made weigh in
Consumed by your selfish sins
Unable to see a happy end
Your soul can no longer defend

As your true colors show through
Nothing you do or say is true
AS your own means is what you see
My truth is you’re dead to me

 


My Silence

My Silence

I’d used to say I love you
That all I wanted was your happiness
Though those words were once true
I realized all you wanted was my bitterness

Since I would say that I knew you
Because you knew me
But that lie left without a clue
Now we don’t know what we see

Shattered reflections of the past
Live in the back of our mind
It’s shadow still is cast
Yet there is no heart to find

Nothing turned out good in the end
Yet we cling to past that will never return
There’s not enough left to mend
Just best to leave it in the urn.

Ashes are just ashes
What we were is just that
Where light randomly flashes
No point in useless chat

So I remain in silence
For nothing more can be done
Can’t afford breathe on this failed alliance
This war is over, never to be won


Divorce Aftermath

Divorce aftermath

Alone she sits,
Alone she waits,
Alone she sees’
Alone she debates.

Smiles stay faded
Smiles stay fake
Smiles stay jaded
Smiles stay to forsake

No where to run
No where to hide
No where to be
No where to bide

Divided they fall
Divided they hate
Divided they crawl
Divided they resonate

Alone she cries
Smiles stay forbidden
No where to be safe
Divided they remain hidden


Save Me From Me

Save Me From Me

 

I have forgotten how to be strong

I have forgotten for too long

All I feel is the weakness

All I feel is the bitterness

 

This is my life now I guess

Stuck to forever regress

Can’t seem to find the will

To heal, so I remain ill

 

I can no longer feel right

As my insides become tight

Absorbed in fear

Lost in a frozen tear

 

I have become my true enemy,

I lack indemnity,

A will to live has faded

As my joy is raided

 

Going through the motions to remain sane

Though I can not see what I do gain

My world is almost over

I wonder if I can recover

 

Tired of living in troubled times

Though in my soul, nothing chimes

Abused for so long this is all I know

Could I even swim in a change of flow

 

I can’t seem to find relief

As tragedy is my motif

Shedding it all takes to much strength

From which I haven’t the length

 

Someone please bring back my smile

Stand with me through out my life’s trail

For alone I can no longer bare

Cause if left alone I have not a prayer

 

Force me down the right path to take

Shake me loose and not be fake

For I have reached this terrible limit

And all it would take is just a minute

 

Save me from myself would you please

Before I close up and finally cease

All I need is someone to guide

All I need is a ride

 

To take me to a better place

Where happiness fills its space

Where my dreams have a chance to become real

Where I can slowly begin to heal.


Living Black Cloud

Living Black Cloud

 

I am the thunder,

I am the lighting,

I am the rain,

I am whats frightening ,

I created this storm

Though I wasn’t alone

Though I am all they see

So denying would be vain

Wish you would just understand

Its not that I am not to blame

But I wasn’t the only one involved

Now all I see is pity and shame

Shame of what this has become

Pity for the parties involved

I see the scars yet to form

Cause we let this evolve

I just want to solve it

Fix it the best I can

Though life wont let me

So I am a broken man

Lost everything once

Only to lose it again

This cycle will continue

Till my better end

I am like the living black cloud

Raining on everyone around me

For my pain and sorrow are too great

For me to keep from free