Nicole stares at her computer screen
Blankly hoping to be seen
As what she desires to be
Gathering her family tree

Heart broken several times
Is now torn by past crimes
Torn between desire and responsibility
She battles random in-toxicity

Her heart still beats as she gets grips
But every step forward she slips
Falling to her knees
As all seems to freeze

Children lost in the chaos
Of a mother forced to toss
Everything in the air
For nothing is fair

Poor choices have worn her down
Though she still tries to see hope around
Blaming family, and herself for all
Makes it hard for her to stand tall

Clarity only comes from reality checks
Sometimes too late they have their effects
Things continue to spin out of control
Everyone feeling her lost toll

Unsure of what to do
She questions whats true
Choices must have input
As she wants to clean the soot

So she sits in front of a computer screen
Trying to find something serene
Tiny glimmers of hope out of reach
Things to help her learn and teach

Though nothing will change for the better
For standing in the rain means you will only get wetter
She may have to make a very hard choice
Move on and forget an innocent voice

Damage grows as the war continues
As all suffer from the blues
One child’s needs masked another’s
Fighting for sisters and brothers

How do you make a choice when neither is right
No winner or loser but you must fight
When your loyalty faces morals
A life of endless emotional quarrels


About shoelessboywonder

Poet and cook, I'm just starting out in the web world trying to grow a fan base for my poetry, it seems like its off to a good start and the site is also made for me to improve upon my writing skills so please rate and comment on the poems you like best, feedback is the greatest way to success thanks for checking me out and my site. View all posts by shoelessboywonder

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